Who am I? What am I? Where am I? Where am I headed to? I really don't know. RNFI. Really No F**king Idea. A cynic, an idealist, a person with ideas, but NATO. Am I? I really don't know. RNFI. Really No F**king Idea.

Friday, January 27, 2006

Important Lesson

as part of my course work, i had to go into a school to observe how students in classroom situations. so i was in this class where the students were given a worksheet each. guess what the title of the worksheet is...

"Fingering Skills"

i kid you not.

no... it was not a course in Sex Education... the subject was Elements of Office Admin and the students were taught to finger the keyboards of computers not...

and the students were asked to type this passage. and when i looked closer at the passage, lo and behold! it was some NE insidiously worked into the lesson. the passage was about how the Singapore commandoes stormed a hijacked aircraft when it landed in Singapore. the article was gushing about how effective the commandoes were and how that demonstrated that Singapore was indeed a "shrimp with teeth" whose bite can really be painful.

with all due respect to the commandoes, we all know that that particular attempt was not as successful as it was made out to be. credit then to the people in Mindef Public Affairs (or whatever equivalent that they have in that time) for giving the story such a good spin.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Survivors

our modern society depends so much on technology. and i would argue that the more well to do you are, the more you depend on technology. going along these lines, therefore, if the day comes when we lose our electricity supply, it is the well to do who will suffer the greatest.

the poorest of the poor will be the ones who will then be most adapted to survive in those conditions. in fact, they probably won't notice any difference.

Equality

is a myth. there is no way there can be equality in practice. and especially not so in a modern technological society, which is highly hierarchical and whose modus operandi is based so much on the division of labour.

the theory is that the rich and powerful will help those who are not be better off than if the rich and powerful were not there. however, the rich and powerful can only stay at the apex of the pyramid if the 'lower class' supports them, cooperates with them (someone's got to do the dirty work...).

looking from another perspective, such a system will fail if 2 things happen:
  1. the rich is unable to provide an increasingly good quality of life for the poor
  2. the poor becomes too envious of the rich and decides not to cooperate with the rich.

another characteristic of this pyramid (at least in Singapore... at least in theory) is that the stones are not fixed in place. the elements in various strata are in constant motion. someone who is poor today can, through hard work (supposedly) move to up the pyramid and someone rich and/or in power might, if he/she fails to deliver, drop down the pyramid.

the problem thus comes when the poor feel that the rich are holding on to power through unfair means. or when the gap between the top and the bottom become too wide. then the social fabric gets strained to breaking point. Singapore seems to be moving steadily towards that threshold. that is why we now have workfare.

it is thus very clear what the PAP is trying to do. it is focussing on the bread and butter issues. it knows that those are what the people are concerned with, not issues of freedom, human rights, etc. once the PAP and the elites give the poorest in the society a minimum standard of living, which is much better than they could expect from any other society, then the PAP and the elites can rightly demand cooperation from those in the lower social-economic strata.

can Singapore continue with that strategy? can we continue to exist as a nation by concentrating on economic development?

why not?

Happiness

can someone bring another person happiness?

yes. it is possible. when i met a friend whom i've not seen for a very long time and when she gave me the biggest hug that i've received in a long time, she made me happy.

and when we spent a good 3 hours chilling, chatting, that made me happy.

so yes. you can bring another person happiness.

whether that person stays happy or not depends on him/her though.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Let's talk about sex

my favourite topic... which has been on the news a fair bit these few days too. or rather, not sex explicitly, but sex education. it seems that MOE wants to do more. though, according to the student that was interviewed, it seems that teachers are stuffing things down the students' throats (now now... what are you thinking of? i meant the 'proper values', principles of abstinence, etc). i.e. the approach seems rather didactic.

would it work though? probably not. i think expecting abstinence is unrealistic. besides, why abstinence? the only reason for abstinence is that it is the surest way of preventing STD and unwanted pregnancies. so perhaps one should go about it by talking about the nastiness of STD's and unwanted pregnancies, then following the discussion through to its logical conclusion of abstinence as the best way to prevent STDs and unwanted pregnancies.

other than that, i really cannot think of any other rational reasons for the insistence of abstinence.

then there is the issue of sexual orientation. it is interesting that the sexuality courses that are conducted in some schools include discussions of sexual orientations. and some of these courses have been 'outsourced' to various organisations, including one called Liberty League Pte Ltd, which recently got a grant of $100,000. various arguments have been raised against this grant. i would like to pick up 2 points.

first, i am against the portrayal of homosexuality as a disorder to be gotten rid of. some people just are homosexual. what rights do we have of making them lesser people than us? having said that, there are indeed some teenagers who are confused about their sexuality. however, rather than telling the students that homosexuality is wrong, i feel that we should help them find out what is right for them, straight or homosexual.

secondly, and more importantly, Liberty League apparently argues against homosexuality using the Bible,claiming that it is against God's will, etc. if that is true, than that is a clear breach of secularism. and if they are doing that in schools and in front of non-Christian students, then i'd say we should charge them with sedition, fine them and throw them in jail. and if they are indeed doing that, then i would encourage students in those classes to walk out. and if any teachers try to stop them, these students should invoke our constitution which gives students the freedom to not be under any religious influences in schools.

i wonder whether this has been brought to the attention of MOE, MCYS and NVPC.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Tongues Engaged

i wrote about how i think some blogs put forth good recommendations on policies and inspire discussion on policy matters some time ago. in that post, i mentioned that it might be a good idea for policy makers to occassionally look through some people's blogs as a source of feedback on policies.

i now have a good concrete example here. if only the Minster or someone influential enough or even one of the Ministry's minions officers could read that entry. perhaps it would generate some discussion within the Ministry and lead to an improvement to the system.

personally, i feel that eligibility to do Higher Mother Tongue should not be determined solely by the aggregated results of the streaming examinations at Primary 4 nor the PSLE. a student may a genius at one particular subject (in this case Mother Tongue) but totally suck at the other subjects.

or we can look at it from the other perspective. just because some one does wonderfully well in PSLE does not mean that that person can do HMT. such a person might only have a mediocre ability in MT but has exceptional aptitude for Maths and Science, thus scoring excellent aggregated PSLE results. such a person might then find HMT impossibly difficult. therefore, the point is that whether a person can take HMT as an O-level subject should not be dependent on his aggregated PSLE results but rather should be dependent on his ability in the language.

unless of course the government still feels that it is more important for students to have good Maths, English and Science results and only when these are satisfied, can the student do other stuff. because that is what the message the current policy is sending out, "hey, if you can't do Maths, Science and English, then you had better spend more time on those subjects rather than doing MT, no matter how good you are in MT." of course, this runs counter to the spirit of allowing students multiple paths to success and the ostensible vision that all talents are equally valued.

Friday, January 13, 2006

Normally Speaking...

in Singapore, Normal is not Ordinary.

most people would think that Normal is worse than Ordinary.

and i think only in Singapore are most people not Normal, but Ordinary.

odd innit?

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Get Down

we had a 'debate' of sorts in class today. and B. said that he wants to be the floor. so he was the floor. then J said something which seemed to be neither for the Prop nor the Opp. so B said, "J, come join me on the floor."

and i burst out laughing, and said, "So B, you'd like J to join you on the floor, huh?" with a certain tone. then some of the people around me caught on and burst out laughing too...

it's usually not what is said, but rather the context and the tone that it's being said that actually determines the message.

Whistling Away

there was this story in TST about how one would be hard pressed to make a movie about whistle blowers in Singapore, unlike in US, which spawned shows such as "The Insider", "Erin Brokovich", etc.

the writer goes on to say that all that may change with new legislation to protect whistle blowers. while i agree that legislation to protect whistle blowers is indeed needed, i think the article misses one point. the reason why there are movies (of fairly good quality) made about whistle blowers is because those whistle blowers faced no small amount of difficulty and persecution. they had all different kinds of shit stuffed in their faces and still came up tops. and that's what makes their stories great stories of triumph, that's what makes those characters such heroic ones.

the difference therefore is about moral courage and (yes... you've guessed it) resilience: the moral courage to speak up against what is wrong and the resilience to make sure that one is heard regardless of the challenges and setbacks. now it would seem that both of these are sorely lacking in our Singaporean culture. if anything, instilling these should be amongst the desired outcomes of our education and should be prioritised above the blind pursuit of results.

it is interesting that in fact, politicians have pointed this out . yet, we are still obsessed with the mad pursuit of good exam results. why? in no small part, parents and society are to blame. can we do anything about it? yes. but parents must change their mindsets and work together with educators.

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Bah!

just as well that i don't live in a country that snows... and hence don't get into snowball fights... oh... and apparently, there is something wrong with one of the equations. but i've not bothered to find out whether there is and if there is, what's wrong with it...

Question

White trousers are being tailor-made on a large scale, what comes next?

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Induction

in my bid to fulfil my resolution of being able to drink more, i went drinking on Friday. i think i have improved... slightly... but that is not the point of this post. the point of this post is what alcohol induced in me that particular night:
  1. sleepiness which passes and then i'm wide awake. with my head throbbing... nigh... pounding. which also passes...
  2. more intense awareness of various parts of my body... as if each part has a mind of its own and are all talking... nigh... screaming at me at the same time.
  3. i thought about W. about how surreal my relationship with W. was, how incredibly strange it was that W. and i even got close enough to have what happened to us happen to us. and i had this intense feeling of missing her... it felt like my intestines were twisted, my lungs got all compressed and my heart ached terribly.
  4. i also had an intense desire of seeing some people that i am not that particularly close to. perhaps it's my subconscious trying to tell me something... well... we'll see...

Jasmine, the reason why that post you had on your blog resonates with me that much is because W. once wrote me something very similar. i can't (perhaps cos i don't want to) find it anymore. but i can still remember, very vividly, the feeling i had as i read that particular note.

on a lighter note. i think Dian Xiao Er has quite good food. problem is that the place is quite small... so there's usually a queue. go early to avoid disappointment. alternatively, make reservations in advance.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

Do you know The Other?

"When Hitler attacked the Jews I was not a Jew, therefore I was not concerned. And when Hitler attacked the Catholics, I was not a Catholic, and therefore, I was not concerned. And when Hitler attacked the unions and industrialists, I was not a member of the unions and I was not concerned. Then, Hitler attacked me and the Protestant church"

presumably, the person who said this is telling us that one does not have to be a Jew to fight against the injustices that the Jews faced in Nazi Germany, nor does one have to be a homosexual to fight for equal rights of homosexuals nor one need to be a black to fight for the civil liberties of the blacks.

however, to misconstrue this statement and think that one does not need experience with the groups of people that you are helping (for want of better word) is a gross mistake.

true. you need not have lived in abject poverty to fight for the abolishment of poverty. but one needs to have an in-depth understanding of the causes and effects of poverty. one needs, almost, to be able to empathise with those who are poor. i would therefore suggest that if one is indeed serious about doing something for the poor (or indeed for any group of disadvantaged and/or marginalised people), one should get to know them, not just through books, but have intimate contact with them, truly understanding as many aspects of their lives as possible and seeing issues from as many different perspectives as possible. in short, one should conduct got down on the ground and do some fieldwork.

otherwise, if one is to try to help these groups of people just based on theory, cloistered up in the ivory tower of academia, one's efforts may just bring more harm than good as in the fiascos of IMF in Latin America and Indonesia. in otherwords, commenting without doing fieldwork is irresponsible and will do more harm than good.

Friday, January 06, 2006

Resilience

there was a letter in the Today papers 2 days ago. this guy was saying that he wrote in and called the town council to fix the lift which was going a bit slow. and all he got was the usual, "we are looking into it" crap. that in itself was bad enough, he says. what was worse was that he got spammed. he got emails and SMSes from the CC, MP's new year greetings, etc.

now this person says that it is no wonder that Singaporeans are apathetic, disillusioned about offering feedback, etc. given that not only are their feedback not taken seriously they get spammed.

i agree that the behaviour of the town council described is really not up to standard and the MP should be utterly ashamed that his town council is so inept. in fact, i think that the MP, in allowing what has happened to happen, has not done a good job.

however, i think that anyone who gets discouraged from engaging the government simply because of not getting the response that one desires and being spammed should utterly be ashamed of oneself. it simply shows a lack of resilience.

if people like LKY, GKS had given up at their equivalence of the slight hurdle tha this person faced, then Singapore might probably still be a backwater, third world nation. if Ghandi had given up in his equivalence of that small bump that this person had, then India might still be a British colony. if Rosa Parks and Martin Luther King had given up just because they got their equivalent of spam and perfunctory responses, the blacks in America would probably still be second rate people.

could it be that Singaporeans are too sheltered and pampered that we demand instant results and if we don't, we give up? where is our resilience? it would be this lack of resilience on our part that would allow a corrupt government to continue being in power despite being corrupt.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

To CAP it off

but that's not what they call it in NIE. in NIE, they call it Cumulative Grade Point Average (CGPA). and this is how they calculate one's CGPA. each module has a certain number of Academic Units (AU). so they take the GPA that you scored for that module (A is 5.00, A- is 4.5, etc etc) multiply by the AU of that module. do so for all the modules you take and then add them all up. then divide by the total number of AU's of the course (in this case it's 30). if you get 4.50 and above, then you are in the running for a Distinction. but you still have the practicum to contend with.

now the Practicum is supposedly 10 AU's. however, it seems that the practicum doesn't contribute to your CGPA cos the only grade given are Pass, Credit and Distinction. no GPA there (or so i understand).

so i was thinking... now i'm done with 20 AU's already from last sem. given my CGPA from last sem, would it still be possible to get a distinction. the answer is... NO. even if i get all A's this sem, because there are only 10 AU's worth left, there is still no way i can hit 4.50.

so what does that mean?

it means that i should not work that hard for my assignments and put that time to better use. we all know that in order to get a B+ from a B means a lot more effort than to get a B from a B- (one form of the Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility perhaps?). and so that amount of time i save from not trying to get a B+ from a B means that i can go do a lot of other things. like... builiding my stockpile of... :)

Following Advice

read in the papers yesterday that apparently, Brazilian babes have been given longer visas in UK. looks like the British government is following the advice of one of their most esteemed citizens: Ali G. AIGHT! BOOYAKASHA!

in other news. i've got much work this term. which means that i actually have to get started on them soon. darn.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Israel

of the Far East. that's what some one likened Singapore to. this was with regards to our strategic position. there is the sentiment that the moment we fire our first bullet, we'll be perpetually at war. it was an interesting, albeit unassuring, thought.

Fair Exchange

on 2 seperate occassions, with 2 different people, i had conversations about the same thing. completely unarranged.

and the topic of the conversations was whether or not they would open brothels and why.

both of them would. one, J, feels that it is a viable alternative, the other, B, was coming from a more interesting position. but both felt that there is nothing wrong with that.

B. shared something that someone he knew said: "ee ai loui, wah ai song" (Hokkien for: she wants the money, i want the comfort), implying that it is a fair and aboveboard exchange.

now of course it would be a problem if the girls were forced into it against their will and not given commensurate renumeration (i.e. exploited). however, if the girls are able to earn a decent living, raise their standard of living to a level which they otherwise wouldn't have, and through their trade, have an opportunity to break out of poverty (and perhaps even help their families break out of poverty), then should we not help them do so by providing a safe(r) and (more) conducive environment where the girls could do so?

now B. situation was slightly different. see, he was coming from the view of comfort houses. he basically felt that if he were commanding troops into battle, he would, without hesitation, find women (of negotiable affection) and set up comfort houses for his troops. (again, here he meant that the girls must be in it out of their own volition and adequately compensated).

his reasoning was this:
human beings have some basic cravings. while some can curb this cravings, it is only human that once in a while, we give in to these cravings. now for a soldier in the battlefield, fighting the cravings are all the more difficult. if there are no venues where the soldiers can legitimately satisfy their cravings, they will only do so via more violent means, i.e. rape the women of the places they conqueor. however, with a comfort house designated for the troops to satisfy these more base of their cravings, the commander can then legitimately punish those who resort to violence to satisfy their needs. furthermore, this would boost troop morale.

my own view is that so long as human beings remain human beings (i.e. not evolved such that we are completely free of our animal instincts), we prostitution will exist. and it is better to legalise it and thus be able to regulate it to some extent. however, we must be careful that legalising it does not mean glamourising and that girls don't think of it as easy money.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Exerpts...

here are exerpts of a speech by a politician:
"I think this obssession with getting outstanding results in the Cambridge examinations is a very bad thing. After all, much of what a boy or girl learns in school - history, geography, mathematics or chemistry - will be forgotten in 10 years' time. What is the point, therefore, of all this effort? The real purpose is to distinguish the bright and clever boys and girls from the less bright and clever. A classification of this kind is necessary ... If this is the purpose of examinations, then obvioiusly you can discriminate between excellent, good, fair and mediocre on the bassis of, say, three or four subjects as you can on a larger number. Further, you can take into account other activities of the students, such as sports, participatoin in extra-curricular activities, leadership potential and so on... The preoccupation in Singapore with examination results is unnatural and unhealthy, and we should bring it to an end as early as possible. After all, good performance only proves one thing - ability to answer examination questions. This ability is, presumably, related in some way to intelligence. It is also related to the possession of good examination techniques. And it does no tell us a lot of other things about a person, for instance, his integrity, his charater and so on, which are just as important as intelligence and more important than the mastering of examination technique.

... I think there are 3 matters or aspects of education which have been neglected in Singapore, possibly as a result of overemphasis on examinations. These three aspects are (1) creative imaginations, (2) character, (3) moral values. I do not say that the present system does not try to instil moral values or develop character or cultivate creative imagination. What I am saying is that the effort is not sufficient and must be greatly improved upon. At any rate, this is my impression, judging by the products of schools.

... By creative imagination, I mean the ability to think independently and find solutions to problems without reference to the textbooks and without instructions from others. Imaginative thinking is... inhibited by parrot-like teaching of textbooks, and I hope that abominations of this kind will cease in all our schools.

It is only when a person can think creatively that he is capable of initiative, that he can form his own judgements on matters and that he can be entrusted with great responsibility. Tehse are the qualities which we want to inculcate in the young.

The second point is character... character and intelligence are independent attributes. An intelligent person can have no character; that is, he may be weak and irresolute. Conversely, persons of lesser intelligence can show a high degree of courage and tenacity when placed in trying or adverse conditions. I think I am right in saying that the development of character in this sense has not received teh importance it deserves.

... Now I come to moral values. Imagination and character are necessary but not sufficient in themselves to produce a desirable type of citizen. For instance, the most successful leaders of pirates, brigands and gangsters have imagination and character in ample proportions but they, of course, are sadly lacking in moral stature. ... The importance of moral values to good citizenship is obvious. We want people who have a sense of social responsibility, who are able to overcome their innate instincts of greed, personal vanity and other human weaknesses in the interest of the common good. Without a widely accepted code of moral values, Singapore will remain what it is now - a community which is basically self-centred and selfish. Such a community may be all right if it is governed by others, but will not survive for long as an independent democratic national state if the more successful citizens continue to place their self-interest before the interest of the community.

Now why do we want to turn out citizens... with creative imagination, stout character and a sound sense of moral values? I believe that without this kind of citizen, there is no guarantee that we can maintain a continuing basis for our survival and prosperity. As an island-republic in the centre of a turbulent region, our society needs to be resourceful and adaptive. We should be able to seize every advantage which the current situation offers us. We must be prepared to innovate, to strike out into new lines of activity whenever these are necessary for our well-being. Without creative imagination there can be no innovation, and without innovation, we will not succeed in adapting ourselves to circumstances as they change.

As for character and resolution, these are always necessary in adversity. At present, we have a community which tends to be complacent and arrogant when successful. At the first signs of coming troubles, our people are liable to panic. There is no guarantee that in future decades, all will be smooth sailing all the time. So, without some iron in the soul, without a strong backbone, a debacle can be brought about should we be confronted with a sustained series of misfortunes. Once people lose their confidence and decide to pack up, Singapore can quickly revert to the jungle swamp that Stamford Raffles first saw in 1819, for we have no natural wealth to fall back on.

These, then, are the qualities which i see as necessary in the future citizen, and indeed, in oursleves. The present thinking of the Government on the reforms in our school system will, I hope, stimulate public debate and public thinking on the subject..."

guess who made this speech and when it was made.

i shall have my opinions on this speech in a later post.

Monday, January 02, 2006

It's a Rap

haven't seen the show yet... but the rap's pretty funny nonetheless...

2005 :: 2006

2005 has been an eventful year. actually... 2005 and 2004 were both eventful (i take those 2 years as a single package...). got myself into many things, learnt a lot, found love, lost love, been hurt, hurt others, rediscovered friends, met new friends, all on the road of continually finding myself.

and so 2006 is upon us. i ushered it in amidst dancing lights and sparkling spritely fireworks. it was a fun (albeit stinky) evening last night.

well... what do i want to do in 2006? well...

  1. Give some youths the Gift of Dance (GoD)
  2. Be able to drink more
  3. Fall in love (if it happens, you can go buy 4D)
  4. Make more friends (those of you who read my blog, but don't know me... well... drop me a message and perhaps we can get to know each other!)
  5. Sustain friendships

i'm sure as the year goes along, more things will come up. well... as far as the being able to drink more goes... i've already started on that. i think it's beer i can't take. i seem fine with Malibu and Bicardi.

well... here's wishing all of you a smashing great year in 2006!