Who am I? What am I? Where am I? Where am I headed to? I really don't know. RNFI. Really No F**king Idea. A cynic, an idealist, a person with ideas, but NATO. Am I? I really don't know. RNFI. Really No F**king Idea.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

How Blunt

i am listening to the James Blunt songs that Jezz sent me (thanks Jezz). they are so poignant, so sad, so me.

and i just went to read the lyrics of "You Are Beautiful". gosh. it so applies to me. i know. it's sad. but it does. so many familiar faces of total strangers, rushing by in the multitudinous crowds.

and... "Goodbye My Lover" too. it so literally describes my mental state of the many times i just lay on my bed, starring into blank space, thinking of things that could have been, of potentialities that never became actualities, of times gone by, and uncertain futures.

but i think of the people whom i've gotten to know recently, how our meandering Brownian paths crossed one another despite the statistical improbabilities, how unexpectedly we clicked well and from strangers in a crowd to friends in each others' companies.

sigh. next post, i'll try to write about TGV. but tonight, let me languish in pensive poignancy.

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Republic

right. enough of corny posts. i've been informed that corny people get killed by cereal killers (thanks Deanne...), so i shall attempt to post something that is not corny.

so people were seditious in Singapore. now that is unfortunate. for a few reasons.

firstly... if those people really made those comments as what was reported, then they were really in the wrong. so some people, because of religion, do not like dogs and would rather prefer to not have dogs around or even be at places where dogs have been. is that really that big a problem? why must one group make silly remarks that shows a lack of respect to the other group? can't the 2 groups just sit down and sort things out amicably, with sincere mutual respect?

more importantly, what does this reflect of our society? that without big daddy G, we end up as little children, squabbling, making childish, irresponsible, disrespectful remarks about one another, rending the fabric of our society apart. it's as if our so called 'racial harmony' only exists because there are harsh laws that punish anyone who doesn't 'get along'. it's like that computer (or was it a show...) where it's against the law to be unhappy. is that really harmony?

when i was in UK, i had brit friends who would call me 'chink' and crack racist jokes and make racist remarks making fun of Chinese people and Singaporeans in my face. and i would do the same about brits. but it's fine. cos if push comes to shove, if the shit hits the fan, if there were really racial riots or whatever, i know those brit friends of mine will stand by me, protecting me, putting their lives on the line for me. i wonder whether i know any non-Chinese who would do that for me here in Singapore. or wheter enough of such relationships exist between the races.

because if there are, then a few silly remarks by a few silly people would not matter. because then both communities would know that these remarks by a silly few are not representative of what we think of each other. and these silly people would be castigated by both communities, castigated directly by a united society rather than through the law acting as our proxy.

but no. we still need the harsh punishment of the law, the huge cane of big daddy G. before we know how to behave. so we are law abiding citizens only because we are afraid of punishment (or because we covet some rewards) not because it is right to abide by the law. so we do not make racist remarks not because it is wrong, not because we truly respect one another, but because we fear the consequences. is that the product of all our efforts to build a multiracial, multireligious, pluralistic society?

to further illustrate my point, just a hypothetical situation, if, for some reason, china, malaysia and india all went to war with one another, would the chinese, malays and indians in singapore still sit around the same table and eat as friends? or would we need to have a law that punishes anyone who refuses to in order do so in order for that to happen?

but let's take step back. even in this peaceful times, i don't have many non-chinese friends. and i dare say that the same applies to many chinese in Singapore. and similarly, i think a lot of Malays don't have many non-Malay friends, etc etc. that is a problem. do we interact enough with people of different ethnicity? and by that, i don't mean cursory interaction, but the sort of interaction that develops a deep understanding and relationship with one another from different ethnic groups. if we do, then really, we would not need laws to make us live in harmony with different ethnic groups because harmony naturally exist amongst true friends.

so yes. while i lament the implication that Singaporeans have lost another avenue to express themselves freely, i lament more the implication that the racial harmony in Singapore might not really exist.

Long Time

it's been a long time.

so ya been good?

ya... soya bean good!

so far so good?

ya... sofa so good... to sit on...

so far me ray do...

do what? I DON'T KNOW!!!

and you thought this was going to be a serious post...

:)

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Punchline

it was QCP520 lecture. Dr Toh was telling a joke to try to make a point.

the joke goes like this:
so when the teacher came into class and saw a word written on the board. it was quite small... so the teacher had to go quite close to see that it was 'penis'. she dismissed it and rubbed it off.

the next day, the same thing happened. only that the word was written slightly larger. again. the teacher dismissed it and rubbed the word off.

on the third day, the word was again written on the board, now the word was quite large. the teacher really could not take it anymore and showed her displeasure.

one of the students then said, "Aiyah, cher, what you expect. It's a penis... the more you rub, the bigger it gets!"

so that was the joke. at the delivery of the punchline, Xiang Hao, one of my coursemates said, "I saw that coming."

i'm sure he did.

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

Comeback

so there we were. talking and talking. poor NUS students. it is getting late and JIS is still talking to them...

and then i joined them. don't get me wrong... what she was saying was interesting. but... it is really getting late...

so finally JIS said, "oh... it is getting late isn't it..."

my tongue-in-cheek reply was, "Yes, it is. But I am sure with your captivating company, they won't feel that it is all that late."

her comeback, "well... it is getting late now that you have joined us."

Jos, now that's a good comeback.

:)

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Health Foods

i think Jos should be very healthy now... considering that she probably is eating a lot of BRAN and oats. that coupled be increased physical activity... i think we could be expecting a much slimmer (not that she's not slim already) jos... hopefully, that will continue for a long long time... i think some stories should not have sequels... *wink*

anyways... i read Juzhen's blog and when i got to the last few paragraphs, i just died of poignancy overdose. it just reminded me of the many people whom i will never see ever again (bumping into them on the streets or in shopping malls don't count...).

sighz. i give up.

btw. if anyone knows the title of the song that they play together with this week's full circle trailer thing, can you tell me... better yet... if you have that song, could you send it to me?

:)

Friday, September 02, 2005

Teachers' Day

i got my first ever Teachers' Day present. from Isnaidi. he met me just to give me the present. how sweet is that?

:)

Thursday, September 01, 2005

sElected Presidency

right... i know this topic is a bit of the overdue and all... considering the Presidential non-Election happened quite some time ago. but then again... it is quite timely too... considering that he's swearing in today.

well... i am not questioning the legitimacy of Mr S R Nathan as the Elected President. but i am questioning the legitimacy of he Elected Presidency.


see, if the government openly endorses one candidate, and the other candidate gets his name dragged through mud, does it not make people wonder about how fair the entire system is?

the question about why JTC and all the other people have to come out and hold press conferences to slam Andrew Kuan, i think that just gives the impression that they are under orders of the MIW (no... not the NSmen website you twit...) to undermine the credibility of Andrew Kuan. thing is, well... if indeed he's not as good as he made himself out to be, then perhaps what JTC and gang could have done was to send their reports to the PEC and let the esteemed members of the PEC decide. but now that they have done that to Andrew Kuan, essentially pulled out all the skeletons in his closet and hung out his dirty laundry, it makes any other eligible people think twice before they consider running for presidency against the government endorsed candidate.

and that would cast doubt on the entire Elected Presidency. it's like... if you want to run for presidency, consider whether you have the endorsement of the government. otherwise, better be prepared to face the entire weight of every single government machinery.

but then... see... the elected president is supposed to hold the second key, to keep the government in check, just in case they turn profligate and squander all our reserves. but then he is endorsed by the government. the more intelligent amongst us (or rather... anyone who has a brain) will notice something really funny... the person who's supposed to keep an eye on me is someone i officially endorse?! erm... right... does it not sound like... CRONYISM?!!!

perhaps Tony (not Blair you idiot... Tan. Tony Tan) might run for the next (s)Elected Presidency...